Amazingly Me

For the first time I am going to talk about this here. But before I do so let me tell you first that I am not proud of what I did. I am sharing this to discourage those who want to try and encourage those who wants to stop. 

This is a confession. I am going to talk about this only once and I promise not talk about it ever again. It was an experience I don't think I would ever want to try again. I admit it was good and fun for a while but it started to become ugly. 

It all started after failed relationship last year. I met some people and eventually became a part of their group. In all fairness to them they did not persuade me to do whatever it was they were doing, I was the one who actually forced them to allow me to try and they did. I was on it for almost three months. I decided to stop because one of my friends was brought to a Drug Rehab Center by his parents for Addiction Treatment. I did not want that to happen to me. I mean I am too old to humiliate myself and my family that way.  Another reason why I decided to quit is that I started noticing some changes. Change in my attitude, sudden mood swings, I am always tired. It was no longer fun in short.

I am just lucky I guess because when I finally decided that I want to quit I did not find it very hard. It has been three months that I am clean. I would still receive text messages from them inviting me to hang out with them but I think it would not be wise to do so even if I am firm with my decision. It would be better to avoid them for a while. I think I would only want to be in the group again when they have already decided to take the same path I did. Last time I heard there is another person in the group that was also sent by her parents to an Alcohol Rehab.